Earlier this week I tweeted "Seriously, living is the hardest thing I've ever had to do". This was met with various replies, inboxes, and text messages. Apparently this statement is very depressing. Subsequent to this statement, I talked to a few friends and I repeated this statement to one in particular.
He says "What is hard about life?"
I say "Everything. Life is not easy." Because to me it's not. It never has been. I never woke up and thought "Wow, life is so easy and grand! This is so awesome." He proceeds to make some type of analogy to a single cell germ and I can't.com but somehow the friction that is our converstation leaves me fulfilled enough to know that while we don't see eye to eye, we can somehow inspire each other.
Most of the time I wake up feeling the struggle. Life is a struggle. I have said this forever. Or maybe I should say this: My life is a struggle. I am not trying to make it harder than it is...I just have accepted the fact that if I want to win, I do have to "Go Hard or Go Home" all the time. I pride myself in going through what I've been through and still being alive. A weaker person would have killed theirselves by now.
Despite my somewhat bleek outlook on life...I love it more than anything. It's a blessing to wake up. I love my family. I love my friends. I love my life. I worked hard for what I have. And I will continue to work hard. I am a realist. My life is not a fairy tale...and I dont' know the ending.
suffice to say...all I can do is continue to pray for the best and work my ass off until my destiny is fulfilled.
Author's Note: Yeah this is a love song. But it's a feel good song. When I feel down, this is what I play.