Do you ever get so overwhelmed with life that you wish you could just push the pause button? I never want it to end but sometimes, especially at night, I lie in my bed and it feels like I am suffocating. I can't breath, I can't think clear, and I'm lost. Trying to explain this to people in my circle and family is hard...they don't get it. They think my life is good, and I should be grateful.
I am grateful.
However being grateful doesn't mean becoming content and complacent.
I remember one day a few years ago I was at work in the Picture People and I was beyond sad. I was so fed up with the day and I was tired. I had took pictures of this little 3 year old girl on a whim, I offered the mom a free picture of her daughter if she let me take a few. So the little girl was very whimsical throughout and it made me laugh. When they came back to see the pictures, I was sitting on the floor, tired, fed up and just wanted to go home. The little girl turned to me and gave me a hug. She squeezed me so tight and I felt so much love, I wanted to cry.
Her mother looks up and says "Aww are you being friendly?...she never hugs people. She must knew you needed one."
Isn't that odd? A little girl can sense pain but grown folks around me are so wrapped up in themselves that they don't notice what other people are going through. Anyway...I entered her picture into the yearly contest Picture People had. And the picture won for our store. I still have the picture I took, and I sometimes look at it and remember that day.
So yeah...sometimes...all I want is a hug. Is that too much to ask for?