Sunday, October 25, 2009

Sephora: "Ooh La La La"

So last month I won a $100 gift card to Sephora for some contest they had that involved rating products. I know some of you will say "Steph, you don't wear make up!" and you are right. But I am a product junkie. I love body wash, lotion, lip gloss, all types of hair stuff and my new obsession: Nails (I am trying hard NOT to blog each time I do my nails like the nail girls to! but I have almost perfected this one type of manicure and might have to put it up).'

Anywho...a week after I get the card Sephora's Friends and family started (20% off your purchase: FF2009 exp. 11/02/2009) so I almost lost my mind but I managed to say at around $115. So here is a run down of what I just had to have:

1. Fekkai Glossing Creme: For the flat iron. I can't get my ends very straight and flat. I was told I need a good pressing creme so we will see.

2. Opi Top Coat: Opi polish requires OPI top coat

3. OPI 6 pack: That black box has 6 polishes in it (silver, gold, two reds, a dark pink red and purple). After I do this umbre manicure, I might post up all my polishes which is reaching upwards of 50 but is no where NEAR what other ladies have.

4. Sephora Cuticle Oil: Vitamin E for the cuticles since I do at least 2 polishes a week

5. Philosophy Merry Cherry Christmas: This smells really good, it does NOT taste good. Trust I know for a fact. But it can be used as a bubble bath, body wash and shampoo.

6. Stila mini pack: 3 lip glosses! Stila last a long time for me so even tho these glosses are mini, I got them lasting a few months which is fine. The brownish color is more nude on my lips with a slight glimmer which I really appreciate. I want to make out with myself when I look in the mirror.

7. Bliss Naked Body Butter: this is heaven in a bottle. It's "naked" so that means sans colors and frangrance. It's a heavy body lotion/cream/butter but its moisturizes like nothing else I ever used. I prefer to use this after exfoliating because it locks in that moisture for an extra soft feel but it's on the expensive side. No one in my house can use this lotion period. Unless you putting it in. You MUST have $5 on it. (okay it's not that expensive but this is not an everyday lotion so I will fight people who use this casually)

8. Free Samples: Ojon misting spray, Frizz shampoo and conditioner, Clean perfume, and bvlgari refresing towel. The best part of Sephora is getting 3 free samples each order! The Ojon was my perk for spending $100. I have to admit I am not a big fan of this mist. And really the only thing from Ojon I love right now is the restorative mask but Oyin's whipped butter may take the place of it very soon (Oyin smells really good too but I didn't taste it yet).

I am thinking of one more order before the sale is up. I have been spending entirely too much money since I officially started my new job (boots, clothes, make up, video games) and I am somewhat ashamed. I did pay all my bills first so it's not like I am acting crazy, but still.

I feel very girlie now.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

The Halloween Blog

Last Halloween I talked about the haunted doll in my grandmother's house (located on myspace and I don't feel like looking for it now). This one is about: Sleep Paralysis and my last experience with it.
so if you don't know:

breakdown: basically when your mind wakes up but your body doesn't.

Okay so it was in the summer/fall of 2006. I was in my apartment and it was pretty late. Now I sleep upside down in my bed, my feet at the head and my head at the feet. I do this so I can look down the hall in case someone breaks in. Now this is slightly crazy since I have an alarm and I keep it on "no delay" (which means that it should go off as soon as someone breaks in). Anywho, I'm sleeping.

Approximately 2:30 am in the morning I wake up and realize I am paralyzed. I am slightly annoyed, but this has happened to me since I was a child. I was about to "break" out of it when I realize there is commotion in my living room. My eyes cut to the left and I see a squirrel running around the living room, up the wall and across the ceiling. I think to myself "this isn't right. How did a squirrel get in my house?" and then I see "it".

"It" was like a shadow man. A tall dark figure and he comes out of the hall closet and stands there for a moment. He was in all black and had on a black hat. I was suddenly overwhelmed by fear. This man had come to take my soul. Not my life...just my soul. He goes into the bathroom and I quickly cut my eyes up and being my prayers. Now the only way I can break out of this condition is to pray to God. But as soon as my eyes focus, he is standing over me.

I stare in horror, frozen in sleep. Tears run down my face and in my mind I beg him to let me be. In my mind I am screaming to God to save me, that I did not want to be a bad person. I have never felt so scared in my life. I was upset and I go into the "Lord's Prayer." The figure leans down over me and he is like smoke...just a dark shadow. Right before he falls into me, a light shines and I wake up screaming.

I am soaked with sweat. I am crying and shaking. I turn on the lights, and hesitantly go into the bathroom. I wash my face and change clothes. And I pray.

I have not had an episode since then. Well not a "real" one. I have had dreams that I am sleep and in my dream I wake up in sleep paralysis...but it's a dream right? In one of my dreams, I see the culprit of these episodes and I asked her "Why would you do this to me?" and she just looked at me and left me alone.

And that was the end.

I don't know much about sleep paralysis. I know how it was as a child. This was not the same. While the episodes are scary, I have never felt full of fear. This had me NOT wanting to sleep. And my old "dream-catcher" was no where to be found. This could drive a person insane.

I want to blame this on my fascination with horror movies...especially religious ones that deal with the fight between good and evil. However there are things that can not be explained in this world. And if you believe in God, you should believe that good and evil are fighting on this world for your (ours.mine.) soul.

Happy Halloween

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Why would you want to go to Africa?!?

I think the better question is: "Why wouldn't you want to go to Africa?"

It amazes me that I tell people of my plans to go to Africa in 2010 I hear "Why would you want to go there?" And this is from African-Americans (or black Americans...whatever you like to call yourself). My best friend and I have been discussing how to practice our French and she suggested Paris, to which I agreed. But then I thought...there are french speaking countries in Africa (20 countries that I can name). And I bet you any one of those countries is 100 times better than Paris. But apparently there is something "wrong" with Africa.

I remember when I was in high school in Richmond VA. There was a class on Black History. I was beyond excited to take it...unfortunately the year that I had the class on my schedule, we moved to Maryland. My new school in Columbia looked at me like I was crazy for wanting to take a black history class. See Virginia is special. The history class there is like Virginia history. I hadn't taken US History so the school in MD was like "oh no, we don't have that plus you didn't even take US History. Sorry."

I was blessed to go to an HBCU. At Morgan, the African Diaspora is a required class. In a nut shell, this class explores the "migration" of Africans from Africa to America. A lot of focus is put on the Middle Passage; and I am grateful it was mandatory. But you know what is funny...White Americans can learn of their heritage and the next summer, they are taking trips. They trace their roots and go.

Maybe this is the issue? A majority of black Americans can not trace their roots. Great grandparents is as far as many of us can go. The stories of our ancestors are not written down but past down by word of mouth, and names and dates often get confused. It's significantly harder for a black american to trace their roots to a tribe/country in Africa and therefore, many feel a disconnect to the motherland. I understand.

However...I found if anyone is curious as to why it's Africa (specifically Ghana) 2010 I will point them in the direction of this video:

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Blessed Sundays...

October has been wonderful and a blessing already.

The last few months have been overwhelming. Being unemployed, and having no money has taken a toll on me physically and mentally. I am the only one who looks out for me in most aspects of my life. I take care of me and here comes this threat to my livelihood. All I knew was that I had 26 weeks to get right. Living off unemployment for the past 5 months has taught me a lot! Mostly that materialistic things are not as important as we sometimes make them. I have struggled before...this time was just different because I literally had nothing else going for me. I was not in school like last time and my family that could help me was in jail. So I had to figure this out on my own with no help from anyone. But I focused, and I prayed.

I knew things would work's all about WHEN will things work out. The longer I was unemployed, the more scared I became. I trust in the Lord, but there were still times when I'd be like "God I can't do this! It's hard!" but I focused.

The first week of October was overwhelming in a good way. I was offered 3 jobs this past week. THREE. One of them was a full time position at the place I currently work part time for. The position is better than anyone I ever had and it pays well and I can stay working in Baltimore City and with this community. I can continue working with pregnant moms (mostly teens) and babies in Baltimore City. I am so excited. I am formally accepting that job tomorrow. The other two were good jobs. But not in what I wanted to do and/or not the pay that was reasonable to me.

The Lord is good all the time.
I prayed on this and worked hard and I got it.
It's all a blessing.

So for all my people in the struggle! lol....