Sunday, June 28, 2009

Skank Robbers

Just in case you missed the preview on BET!! LOL

Thursday, June 25, 2009

R.I.P. Michael Jackson

My heart is heavy as I write this. I haven't blogged in a few days. I had some good things coming up. But today I can't not even focus.

I love Michael Jackson. I know a lot of people disliked him. But I loved him. I remember having a crush on this man when I was little. I asked my mom to name my sister "Billie Jean" after his infamous song! And as I sit here and try to gather my thoughts on him, "You are not alone" plays in the background and I am literally in tears.

One of my most memorable Michael Jackson times is when his concert came on HBO. My mom, sister and I sat in the living eating pizza and drinking soda. I recorded the concert. I still have the VHS at my mom's house. I kept saying "one day I will see this man LIVE in concert." I guess I won't. I had hoped that since he did a recent concert in London, he might come back to the US. I was prepared to pay any amount to see him live.

I don't know what to say.
This hurts.


Friday, June 19, 2009

Pixar has won me over

I usually don't post about real "news" stories. But this one just touched my heart in a way that made me realize how precious life is and how we should not take it for granted. Props to Pixar!!! for coming through and granting a dying's girl wish. I will go see "Up" just off GP now.

Pixar Grants Dying Girl's Wish

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Pursuing your dreams...

How many of us are really pursuing our dreams? The past 5 weeks I have been trying to look deep inside of me to figure out what I really want to do. I make out list after list of things that I would love to do. I don't want to "work". They always say that if you find something you love doing, it will never feel like work. I tried to think back to the last time work didn't feel like it.

I think back to when I was doing my Master Thesis. That was a lot of work (60 pages of work...) that didn't phase me. I found it exciting to research HIV and AIDS and develop new and exciting ways to educate people on HIV prevention. I sometimes pull out that project and read over it. And I am like "this is sooo good! Why can't I do this?"

Why can't I work in HIV and AIDS research? I am not even mad about my old job anymore. I realize a month into it that I hated it. I don't like nutrition, I could care less about obesity in America. And that job could care less about the African American community and more concerned with getting loan repayment from the NIH for working in an "underserved" community. I peeped game long time ago. But who cares?

In order to continue to get unemployment, I have to apply to 2 (or maybe 5?) jobs a week. I try to make it closer to 10 but the economy sucks. I go through the usual job sites, and I found one that is so perfect, I immediately put it on my prayer list and applied. I meet all the requirements, the only drawback is that I don't have a lot (or any) HIV/AIDS research experience. Some people say that shouldn't matter, but experience matters A LOT now. I was told by a job last week they didn't want to train anyone, they didn't have the time or money to do that.

In order to get experience, I have to backpedal. I was offered a job in a woman's health clinic. It's part time. It's not "official" yet because they want me to come in and see the day to day operations before I accept. The job pays me a little more than half my last job paid. What can I do? It's always easier to get a job when you already have one. The lady already told me that she wanted to expand what the clinic offers and that if I want to write grants and get the money to do any type of research there, I can. I like her a lot.

I don't know what to do though...I feel lost. I have no real direction. I don't know what I could do that would make me 100% happy. Or if that is even possible.

Goodness...I wish I could just win the lottery and then go traveling for the next year.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

I am loving underground hip hop (new music!!!)

I got skillz

L.E.G.A.C.Y. is album drops June 16, 2009. Suicide Music. Get it off Amazon or Underground Hip Hop. But let me push this joint. I love Justus League (Justus League is what you need!) and Duck Down (Bucktown is everywhere I swear!!), so of course when I heard "TKO" by L.E.G.A.C.Y. feat Phonte, Chaundon, and Sean Price, I was amped.

I am loving this check it out:

"TKO" zshare download

hit him up:

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Saturday Morning Inspiration

...because sometimes times are just hard. You need to feel uplifted. I like to blast this song and sing it when I feel down. From Amerie's mixtape "because I love it"

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Artscape 2009

This morning the line up for Baltimore's annual Artscape was released this year. I was very excited to see who'd perform. In past years it's been Wyclef, LL Cool J, Clipse, Baltimore's own K-SWIFT (R.I.P. sis), and DJ Culture spinning on the ones and twos.

This year it's a bit different. There are no hip hop stars this year. I feel a certain way. The hip hop stars draw heavy so I am slightly confused. This year, the only note worthy performers are Dionne Warwick, Robin Thicke, and Electric Red. Don't get me wrong, you can't be picky about how you see at a FREE festival (especially since this year's African American Heritage Festival will be $5). I am somewhat excited to see Robin Thicke and Electric Red...I am disappointed that they will perform on Sunday. Sunday is the worst day ever for Artscape...everyone comes on Friday and Saturday. If anything, these two acts should have been put on Saturday evening/night.

However, I still be attending. My mother would like to go on Friday. So I might go twice. I always enjoy the "urban" section of the festival. I just wish my book was finished and pressed by that time (it won't be) so I could sell it on the side of the road too.